Poems

My Shattered Heart

You were there the whole time

From the moment you saw me you knew

Day after day

As much as I want to disbelieve

You held my heart

So carefully as to not let it shatter

You felt my pain

Wanted to take it away

Wanted to erase it

You wanted me to start all over

But the only reason why

Is because you wanted to do the exact same thing

Feed my darkness

Give me pain beyond compare

But my pain was never erased

You just added onto it

You fell away from the light

Consumed by the dark

And decided to tear me open

I couldn't speak

But now I can

My words will not be ignored

You will listen

Over time, my wounds have healed

Over time, I've come to live

I've masked the pain

I've tried to smile

And now I'm speaking

Once you held my heart in your careless hands

Then you took it and smashed it by your feet

And left me to pick it up

Pick myself entirely up

Don't you know though?

Don't you know that I couldn't do that?

I couldn't do that, but I did

I managed to pick up almost every piece

And mend it

But there was one piece

One that I can't find

But you have it

I don't know why, but you do

You picked up that piece

You walked away

And now?

No I need it back

I don't need to feel incomplete

I need my heart to heal entirely

But it can't

It won't

You won't let it

You took the piece of mine

And put it in yours

The only piece of goodness

Into your cold black one

The one where no light can escape

Except that one

The piece of me

I see you fighting

I see the torture

I almost feel bad

But I don't

I need this piece of me

To be whole

But I don't want it

I need to be whole

But I can't

I won't

Because if all the pieces are there

There won't be any scars

I have those scars

To remind me

Of Everything you did

And everything you failed to do

When I as nothing more

Than a child

Innocent and broken

And you came to love me

But ended up killing me instead

So i should say thank you

But for what?

Pain?

The scars?

The bad memories?

The nightmares?

No, thank you

Without you

I wouldn't be able to live

The life that you took away

But I managed

To get it back

Because of two things

I'm something you're not

I'm strong

And a shattered heart just leaves more room

To shine, to grow, and to love

Blind

Blindfold me

So that I can't see

Take away my vision

Will that be better?

You are scared

That I will find something

You don't want found

A character in you

That you don't want seen

No matter what you do

I will always truly see

For it is written

The Blind will see again

And trust me

When I say I will always really see...

There's no hiding

No silly games

I may be blind

But I have perfect vision

If that doesn't seem true

Read it again and believe

Confession

I wanted to tell you

For oh so long

I just didn´t know how

It´s not like it´s easy

You always make it hard

SO much so

That I can barely speak

Where do I begin?

The Beginning is too long

The Middle is too boring

The End is too quiet

At least for you

I´ve waited for this moment

For days and days

Weeks even

But now I think it´s time

I have a confession

One that will change your life

And mine as well

A confession that is not made up

But is true

Once, you made me happy

Now I all I can do is cry

You broke what was left of me

And ran away

You always called the shots

I had no say in anything

If you were depressed..

I couldn´t talk to you

If you were happy..

I couldn´t talk to anyone but you

That´s not how this works.

Not even close

I´m not your little science experiment

You can control me

You can´t control the person I am

The person that I can be

If you can see that...

Deep..deep down within,

Then to you I say

Adieu, Farewell, Goodbye...

Have a.....delightful....day...

Because you know in the end...

You´ll see...

You won´t get your way.......I wanted to tell you

For oh so long

I just didn´t know how

It´s not like it´s easy

You always make it hard

SO much so

That I can barely speak

Where do I begin?

The Beginning is too long

The Middle is too oring

The End is too quiet

At least for you

I´ve waited for this moment

For days and days

Weeks even

But now I think it´s time

I have a confession

One that will change your life

And mine as well

A confession that is not made up

But is true

Once, you made me happy

Now I all I can do is cry

You broke what was left of me

And ran away

You always called the shots

I had no say in anything

If you were depressed..

I couldn´t talk to you

If you were happy..

I couldn´t talk to anyone but you

That´s not how this works.

Not even close

I´m not your little science experiment

You can control me

You can´t control the person I am

The person that I can be

If you can see that...

Deep..deep down within,

Then to you I say

Adieu, Farewell, Goodbye...

Have a.....delightful....day...

Because you know in the end...

You´ll see...

You won´t get your way.......

My Lullaby

If you are my lullaby

You sing me to sleep with happy dreams

And wake me up with happy thoughts

Oh, my dear lullabye

If you are my sunshine

Happiness pours out when you are around

My love spreads when I see your face

My heart Melts when I hear your voice

Oh my beautiful sunshine

If you are my lullaby ~ sing to me

You are my sun ~ Bring me joy

You are my moon ~ shield me

You are my savior ~ protect me

You are my lover ~ love me

If you are my sweet, sweet, lullaby

Then sing me to sleep with happy dreams

And, wake me with beautiful thoughts

Please, never leave me

Oh, my sweet, lullaby

A Magnet

I love what I hate

I hate what I love

Even the loving things that I hate

Just imagine

If love is North

And hate is South

Although no East or West

Isn't it true what they say

Opposites attract

Just like a Magnet